People who know me well (maybe three or so such people) know that I have trouble expressing anger. I tend to internalize everything. My real feelings come out in various and sundry ways, mainly sundry. Yesterday I watched a little old lady from Starbucks windows bravely jaywalking across Highway 119 with thousand pound vehicles barely dodging her. I just watched without the slighted concern for her well-being, thinking about all the people in my life who have cheated and double - crossed me. I just hope my internalizing doesn't cause a tumor or the dreaded vapors.